[He realizes by the time that he gets this letter back that he's being unfair to Lancer. It's not Lancer's fault. He's just trying to help his friend.
Since Lancer is his friend, he should be honest with him. It's hard to admit, but at least it's only in a letter. He doesn't have to tell him face to face, and if Lancer thinks it's strange, he doesn't have to deal with it.
It's better this way. He doesn't want to have to pretend, like he did with Aoi, to act like everything's fine and suffer inside.]
Lancer,
I'm sorry if I was rude before.
The truth is, I like Diarmuid. I don't want to hear about him dating someone else, and I don't want to help you, but I hope he'll be happy with whoever he loves. I know you're being a good friend.
--Kariya.
[And does he like Claudia, too? His heart beats faster. He does hate the thought of her with someone else. But how can he like two people? He's never liked anyone but Aoi. Is this something else the Tower is doing to him? It's confusing. Well, he'll keep the letter simple. Saying that he likes both of them might be too strange.]
[It takes him even longer reply this time. If only because he has a hard time processing this. Though, come to to think of it, it should have been obvious given Kariya's behavior at the party...]
Kariya,
I didn't know until now
So if this thing with Claudia doesn't work, do you want me to set you up with him?
I don't know if he'd want to go on a date with me.
[He doesn't see what he has to offer someone like Diarmuid. But--even if Diarmuid doesn't like him, people can change their minds, can't they? No, it's foolish to think that way.
Even thinking about the prospect, Kariya feels nervous. He's spent a lot of time with Diarmuid, but a date is different. He's never really been on an official date before.]
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Since Lancer is his friend, he should be honest with him. It's hard to admit, but at least it's only in a letter. He doesn't have to tell him face to face, and if Lancer thinks it's strange, he doesn't have to deal with it.
It's better this way. He doesn't want to have to pretend, like he did with Aoi, to act like everything's fine and suffer inside.]
Lancer,
I'm sorry if I was rude before.
The truth is, I like Diarmuid. I don't want to hear about him dating someone else, and I don't want to help you, but I hope he'll be happy with whoever he loves. I know you're being a good friend.
--Kariya.
[And does he like Claudia, too? His heart beats faster. He does hate the thought of her with someone else. But how can he like two people? He's never liked anyone but Aoi. Is this something else the Tower is doing to him? It's confusing. Well, he'll keep the letter simple. Saying that he likes both of them might be too strange.]
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Kariya,
I didn't know until now
So if this thing with Claudia doesn't work, do you want me to set you up with him?
--Lancer
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Lancer,
I know. I didn't tell you.
[To set Diarmuid up with him... Lancer would really do that? But it doesn't matter. Diarmuid doesn't like him that way.
He wishes Lancer would call off this date with Claudia, but he's not going to tell him to do that.]
I might like that, but I don't know if it's a good idea. I don't want to ruin our friendship.
--Kariya
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If anything goes wrong, tell him it was my idea. He's not gonna hate you because a date went bad.
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I don't know if he'd want to go on a date with me.
[He doesn't see what he has to offer someone like Diarmuid. But--even if Diarmuid doesn't like him, people can change their minds, can't they? No, it's foolish to think that way.
Even thinking about the prospect, Kariya feels nervous. He's spent a lot of time with Diarmuid, but a date is different. He's never really been on an official date before.]
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--Lancer
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I don't believe that's true. I'm not anyone's type.
[The notion seems laughable to him. Someone feels down on themselves.]
I'll be glad if he's happy, that's all.
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I'm happier when I know you're happy. And I'm just your friend.
--Lancer
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[Why does he feel like he's suddenly in high school again? Not that he ever had this much relationship drama in high school.]
Even if I'd like that, it doesn't matter, if he doesn't.
[Why is he even talking about dating Diarmuid? It's impossible. Ridiculous.]
Thank you, Lancer. I'm glad you're my friend.